Dear grandpa,

I love you so much. I miss you so much. You have been gone for over four months, but the last time I saw you was five months ago. Right now I’m still struggling so hard to try to cope with my sadness. I’ve been able to keep a smile on my face for a while, but talking to grandma, really frees my innermost emotions. I think with writing you a letter, I will get some closure and hopefully I will be able to live on, without so much sadness.

You mean so much to me, more than anything in the world. You were the one I loved the most; more than mom, dad, anyone because you were so caring, understanding, and thoughtful. You knew how to listen to me. And you were always there for me. Always. I spent with you all my summers while mum and dad were working. Both you and grandma took care of me, and my sister, a million times. In second grade, when we moved to London I couldn't wait for the holidays because that meant coming back to Spain and seeing you and the rest of the family. I remember you giving me ice creams because I refused to eat sandwiches. I can't remember you being mad at someone or arguing with them. I remember so many memories of us spending time together, and it greatly saddens me that what is left of you is only in those memories.

Nonetheless, I’m happy that you finally found peace and that you are no longer in pain. You suffered so much, and during the second half of my high school years, I found your health degenerating. I know you fought hard, so you can spend more time with people who truly loved you. I know you lived a good life. You positively impacted my life more than anyone ever has, and this is the same for others who were lucky enough to have you in their lives. Your life meant a big deal. You had many great kids, and awesome grandchildren that will now go on living because of you; they have only wonderful things to talk about you and your humble character.

Thank you again for being such an amazing person that loved me so much. I love you so much, and my only fear is that I won’t be able to make you proud as you look down upon me from heaven. I pray that I can look to you for guidance for my future endeavors and that you may be a source of motivation for my foolish being. I love you. Always have, always will.